I Still...

I still miss you...
But not like I did before
This intense aching I felt
Isn't there anymore


I still whisper your name...
But not as often as I used to
Now it may be once
Before the day is through


I still hear your voice...
Replaying in my mind
But it's fading now
Soon silence I will find


I still long for you...
To feel your touch
But it's not like before
I don't dream it as much


I still think about you...
And wonder how you are
But my feelings have changed
And they don't go as far


I still feel for you sometimes...
Maybe you are thinking of me?
Or maybe it's just a little memory
Of how it used to be


I still love you...
But it's just not as strong
Because I'm letting you go now
So we can both move on


I still hear you say...
Noone would love me like you do
That's so hard to believe now
After the hurt you put me through


You still have a piece of my heart...
Because I've always felt you here
Now I'm hoping and I'm praying
That, that too, will quickly disappear


This will be my last goodbye...
I've nothing else to say
And everything I've felt for you
Can now just fade away
     

A Dream

I had a dream and it was about you...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes... You know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye...

Reluctance

Out through the fields and the woods
And over the walls I have wended;
I have climbed the hills of view
And looked at the world and descended;
I have come by the highway home,
And lo, it is ended.

The leaves are all dead on the ground,
Save those that the oak is keeping
To unravel them one by one
And let them go scraping and creeping
Out over the crusted snow,
When others are sleeping.

And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,
No longer blown hither and thither;
The last lone aster is gone;
The flowers of the witch-hazel wither;
The heart is still aching to seek,
But the feet question 'Whither?'

Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?

Can't Let Go

Do you have any idea how I feel...
As if my heart was just ripped out.
I actually thought our love was real
But now I don't know what it's about

Every day I just feel heartbroken
With thoughts of you in my head
If only my heart could've spoken
'I love you' is what it would've said

Too bad this feeling won't go away
No matter how much I want it to
But in my heart you'll forever stay
'Cause our friendship is still very true

I've tried really hard to hate you
But somehow it just wouldn't work
Even after everything I went through
I still don't think you're a jerk

No matter how much I try to deny
Our friendship will forever last
Although sometimes we might lie
The past will always remain the past

How is This Fair...

How is this fair...
That I get the wrong end of the deal?
I sit here and cry myself to sleep
Hoping one day you will come and save me,
But life goes on and you never come.

I wish that I could have you back,
I wish that I could have you to hold,
I wish so much but nothing ever happens.

I wish that you loved me still
So we could just be happy
So is this fair that you can sleep at night
While I lay awake, wanting you with me?
Is it fair that you can be happy
By making me so sad?

Is it fair that I'm the one to suffer...
How do I stop my heart from breaking down every time I think of you?
How do I hold myself together without you?

Is it fair that my happiness has to leave me
With only sadness to roll down my cheeks?
Love hurts and sometimes... I wonder why?

Confused

I'm so confused
I never know what you want from me
My heart is forever bruised
I feel like I can never be free


I still remember when we first met
You was so special to me
Now I feel so sad
I couldn't make you happy


But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your handsome face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more 
When I think about how my heart broke


You said you knew how much I felt for you
But you couldn't chose for me
Our love couldn't be true
It seemed if you were happy.


Now you act so attached
You dare not to look in my eyes
I thought we matched
But then my dream dies

In real life, I act like you don't exist
But in my dreams we're together
It's you I can't resist
But in my dreams that won't matter

But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your handsome face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more 
When I think about how my heart broke
You still make me feel so confused

Today

You were there today, but you didn't really see me... And I realised... The thing that was staring at me right in the face, I just was too blinded by love to see... We can never be together in the world and that's the truth I have to face. But it's just so hard... I know I have to let you go but I just can't... Please, tell me you don't love me, because that's the only thing that will force me to believe... Today... My heart is breaking...

My heart may be broken, but it will always be yours...

My heart has always been yours

From the very first day I saw you

But your heart belonged to someone else

And her heart belonged to you too

This ache in my heart can't be banished

This burn in my thoughts can't be erased

This wound in my past can't be mended

These painful lines in the story can't be rephrased

You never know how much I love you

And my heart leaps with every smile

But in the end it's on fire with sorrow

As if I've been running a mile

But love is never selfish

And, though I have many flaws

Love's true path is perfect

My heart may be broken, but it will always be yours...

Change

Change is constant...

Nature

Nature is perfect in it's imperfection...