Light and Dark

The Darkness in my heart
Untamed, wild, but caged
Like the greatest storm in a glass bottle
Threatening to bleed out

For a thousand years
'Hold it in, control it'
Feeling nothing but the pain in the storm
The Darkness longs for escape

Drop by drop, the bottle fills
The glass cracks and splinters
The storm seethes, restrained for the moment
But with every pulse: pain

The very blood in my veins
Chilled, frozen in the dark
Waves of night crash and foam on the shore

A thousand years of pain

The stake is set, the pyre alight

For the burning of love

The lighting of despair and unending sorrow

The flames rearing

The glass thins, the cracks widen

Darkness seeps through the fissures

There is nothing that can be done to hold it back

If the glass breaks, the world ends

Pain, endless pain

The Darkness is everything

I want to give in, break the glass and be free

But something always stops me

Then a wave crashes

It can hold no longer

The great storm is about to escape

As the glass shatters

Then a light shines

And lo! The glass is not glass

The light turns it into a shell of hardest diamond

Protecting both within and without

The shell is healed

But the Darkness within

Still writhes untamed and angry

The storm builds

Then a voice is heard

Out of the light

'Be free, turn to happiness and hope

Leave behind the night'

And lo! The bottle falls

The diamond holds

But the storm within escapes

A moment of despair

And it is gone

The storm drowns

The Darkness is destroyed

And hope fills the bottle

For light is always stronger than Dark

A thousand years of pain cured by love

Forgotten and forgiven, as the glass turns to diamond

Love and hope conquers all

Seek not My Heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?


Below the branches, here and about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
'Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?


Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my heart's askew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?


Seek not my mournful heart, kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.
It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.

It's drifting o'er the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain 
It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.

It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart
For simply...it has torn apart

Alone

I can't seem to forget you... You are now with someone else, and you do not remember me... Alone... That is how I feel... I do not exist in your life anymore... You once said you loved me... I don't even know what it was all for, if you were going to leave me like this... Some people say it is infatuation... Others say it is just being stupid... I don't know what to think... Is it lingering feelings for you, or is it something telling me we are not supposed to be like this? Is it me being unable to let go, or is it meant to be? My heart is aching... Slowly tearing... Painfully cracking... Then splitting apart because you no longer care for me... I love you, do I have to say it? Can't you tell by my actions? So alone without you, and that's how I'll always be... Alone...

Beauty

Some flowers bloom in fall you know,
At summers end their blossoms show
And as the rose’s beauty falls
The dream of love will haunt us all

Jewelry, like a portraits frame
Enhances beauty just the same.
A work of art is best by far
That tells the viewer who they are

But just as what I say is true,
A frame cannot change the view.
It cannot show a beauty fair
Where beauty first, was never there.

It cannot change a scowling face
To one that’s fair and full of grace.
It cannot fix a heart that’s blue
Or make a heart forever true

Their is that beauty of a kind
That knows no boundaries of time
The shining of a soul inside
That none can ever hope to hide

What ever shall I say to thee

That touches love’s sweet rhapsody
To embrace with time and heart
A truly lovely peace of art

There is that loyalty of spirit
That one feels whenever near it
That so enthralls the heart of man
And searches then to understand

There is more to life then beauty,
Their is honor, love and duty
As in the heart that it entails,
Beauty wears so many veils.

I Still...

I still miss you...
But not like I did before
This intense aching I felt
Isn't there anymore


I still whisper your name...
But not as often as I used to
Now it may be once
Before the day is through


I still hear your voice...
Replaying in my mind
But it's fading now
Soon silence I will find


I still long for you...
To feel your touch
But it's not like before
I don't dream it as much


I still think about you...
And wonder how you are
But my feelings have changed
And they don't go as far


I still feel for you sometimes...
Maybe you are thinking of me?
Or maybe it's just a little memory
Of how it used to be


I still love you...
But it's just not as strong
Because I'm letting you go now
So we can both move on


I still hear you say...
Noone would love me like you do
That's so hard to believe now
After the hurt you put me through


You still have a piece of my heart...
Because I've always felt you here
Now I'm hoping and I'm praying
That, that too, will quickly disappear


This will be my last goodbye...
I've nothing else to say
And everything I've felt for you
Can now just fade away
     

A Dream

I had a dream and it was about you...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes... You know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye...

Reluctance

Out through the fields and the woods
And over the walls I have wended;
I have climbed the hills of view
And looked at the world and descended;
I have come by the highway home,
And lo, it is ended.

The leaves are all dead on the ground,
Save those that the oak is keeping
To unravel them one by one
And let them go scraping and creeping
Out over the crusted snow,
When others are sleeping.

And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,
No longer blown hither and thither;
The last lone aster is gone;
The flowers of the witch-hazel wither;
The heart is still aching to seek,
But the feet question 'Whither?'

Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?

Can't Let Go

Do you have any idea how I feel...
As if my heart was just ripped out.
I actually thought our love was real
But now I don't know what it's about

Every day I just feel heartbroken
With thoughts of you in my head
If only my heart could've spoken
'I love you' is what it would've said

Too bad this feeling won't go away
No matter how much I want it to
But in my heart you'll forever stay
'Cause our friendship is still very true

I've tried really hard to hate you
But somehow it just wouldn't work
Even after everything I went through
I still don't think you're a jerk

No matter how much I try to deny
Our friendship will forever last
Although sometimes we might lie
The past will always remain the past

How is This Fair...

How is this fair...
That I get the wrong end of the deal?
I sit here and cry myself to sleep
Hoping one day you will come and save me,
But life goes on and you never come.

I wish that I could have you back,
I wish that I could have you to hold,
I wish so much but nothing ever happens.

I wish that you loved me still
So we could just be happy
So is this fair that you can sleep at night
While I lay awake, wanting you with me?
Is it fair that you can be happy
By making me so sad?

Is it fair that I'm the one to suffer...
How do I stop my heart from breaking down every time I think of you?
How do I hold myself together without you?

Is it fair that my happiness has to leave me
With only sadness to roll down my cheeks?
Love hurts and sometimes... I wonder why?

Confused

I'm so confused
I never know what you want from me
My heart is forever bruised
I feel like I can never be free


I still remember when we first met
You was so special to me
Now I feel so sad
I couldn't make you happy


But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your handsome face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more 
When I think about how my heart broke


You said you knew how much I felt for you
But you couldn't chose for me
Our love couldn't be true
It seemed if you were happy.


Now you act so attached
You dare not to look in my eyes
I thought we matched
But then my dream dies

In real life, I act like you don't exist
But in my dreams we're together
It's you I can't resist
But in my dreams that won't matter

But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your handsome face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more 
When I think about how my heart broke
You still make me feel so confused